Learning

The only place where I can tolerate nonsensical behaviors of people.

Because I understand; that if I were in their shoes, I'd react the same.
Uncontrolled emotions, rage, impatience and a sulk on the face they put on.

But not all of them sulk, cry and put it all out on the outside, though it hurts really bad in the inside.
He was there to visit his wife every day without fail for nearly a month. I went to work every week I saw him there the same place, the same time, the same smile, the same laugh. I knew the condition of his beloved, it was definitely not something that someone could afford to laugh given the same situation.

Maybe he was being optimistic? hoping things would turn around, hoping for a miracle.Though his laughter lessened week by week, still, a smile was always kept on his face no matter how reluctant even til the very last minute. The first person I witnessed who could twitch a smile at others even after the certification of death of a beloved. I admire his emotional strength and his respect for others. But I'm actually more relieved if he'd let it go.

Encountering different things every week is something I like about working in the hospital. Different people, different situation, different reactions. Of course, I don't mean that I like seeing people being brought into the ICU. Witnessing as a third person is a whole new experience, real-life experience and definitely lots to learn from, character wise.

Out of no where...

I saw your name on my Facebook news feed.
It's been a while since we talked.
and the last was quite some time ago.

I clicked on your name,
seeing what I saw, I wasn't surprised.
I just wanted to say two things:
I'm sorry and I'm sincerely happy for you.
I remember you told me before.
but seeing and hearing are different, much different.

At that moment,
it's what I wanted to say to you.
I have your number still, thinking whether to text you.
The last we talked, you shoved me off quickly.
so maybe not.

Although I think you don't visit my blog anymore,
hopefully someday when you're bored and free,
and out of no where see my name,
you would.

so I can get this message across.
to you.

I'll never forget:
A friend who was there for me during the saddest and toughest days of my life.

The popular ones

Everyone's different. 

Everyone has their own priorities in life. 

You can't hate a person just because theirs is different from yours. 

Though I understand 'birds of a feather flock together', 

you don't have to say words hurting people who aren't your kind.

you don't have to reveal actions to exclude the one who doesn't blend in.  

But if you insist, do it unseen, unheard, unknown, whatever, 

because it's the feeling of theirs that you hurt. 

Although you might not care about their existence in your life, 

mind you, they are just like you. And so, they have feelings too, unless you don't. 

Try putting yourself in their shoes. 

Imagine how is it like if you were one day treated that way. 

Time

Just something I realized:

Not everything will go the way you intend it to be.
There will be disruptions along and alternatives will be the path.
Sometimes alternatives might end up a disaster.

But on top of everything, there will always be an open door.
An escape to the problem, whether it is favored or not;
most often least favored, but better than nothing.
The problem will still lie, if you choose not to walk through that last door;
let it be least favored, uncertain or timid.
but one thing for sure, time does not wait.

Thank you

THANKS Aaron! :)

Misconception

A new feeling, 

something I've never felt. 

A feeling I wouldn't consider as pleasant,

something weird,

something wrong, more to guilt. 

I'm not exactly at fault, 

neither are you. 

It has never happened to me. 

but I've read it somewhere, a description of this feeling. 

That point when I read it, I thought.. impossible. 

Right now, I doubt. 

I finally understood your situation. 

I finally understood how you felt. 

But would I take the path you took?

Which way should I go? 

Please tell me that this is temporary. 

A misconception of my heart. 

words

From the closest to the furthest,
by just a few words.
that's how powerful words can be.

Thoughts and claims are yours,
therefore, far beyond my control.
but evidence is what speaks the truth.

Anger does not play.
Disappointment that is.
Coming to know what I'd never expected,
from the closest people I thought would be.

nice. very nice, perhaps.
The anticipation that I have had for months,
I've lost it, just so you know.
That is to go home.

Debt

Newton's 3rd Law.
Every action has an equal but opposite reaction.
What is happening to you now, is a consequence of what you did previously.
Sounds familiar? yes, another post about karma.
It hits you when you did something bad and sinful.
That's what everyone knows.

But the question is, how long does it hit you?
How does it take for you to pay back whatever you have done wrong?
When will it be over?
Will it be up to us to decide? or does it come and go whenever.


It's been a while.
Or should I say, it's been long.
When is the time where I have completely paid my debt?

manners

sometimes when you are so close to someone,

you tend to forget about manners and respect. 

it's because of that closeness you think it's unnecessary to respect,

you think they do not mind,

you think they do not care.

but it's the slightest manners that show that you respect. 

being close, it does not mean that you can disrespect, use and exploit. 

a simple 'hi' or rather a smile won't do much harm.

a short 'thanks' won't cost much time.

an apology is not enough to kill you. 

basic manners, no matter how close you are to another, it still means as much. 

especially an apology.

so difficult? 

although you may be taking them as an option to hang out with,

but they still do deserve some respect? no? 

they have feelings too, not only you. 

silence

it's not hide and seek.
i know why you'd hide, although not specifically from me.
but if there's nothing suspicious, there's nothing to hide.

the fact you did,
it's obvious the intention.

you can get away with murder all the time.
it isn't how the world works.
but i choose not to voice.

nice cover though.