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Everyone's different. 

Everyone has their own priorities in life. 

You can't hate a person just because theirs is different from yours. 

Though I understand 'birds of a feather flock together', 

you don't have to say words hurting people who aren't your kind.

you don't have to reveal actions to exclude the one who doesn't blend in.  

But if you insist, do it unseen, unheard, unknown, whatever, 

because it's the feeling of theirs that you hurt. 

Although you might not care about their existence in your life, 

mind you, they are just like you. And so, they have feelings too, unless you don't. 

Try putting yourself in their shoes. 

Imagine how is it like if you were one day treated that way. 

Time

Just something I realized:

Not everything will go the way you intend it to be.
There will be disruptions along and alternatives will be the path.
Sometimes alternatives might end up a disaster.

But on top of everything, there will always be an open door.
An escape to the problem, whether it is favored or not;
most often least favored, but better than nothing.
The problem will still lie, if you choose not to walk through that last door;
let it be least favored, uncertain or timid.
but one thing for sure, time does not wait.

Thank you

THANKS Aaron! :)

Misconception

A new feeling, 

something I've never felt. 

A feeling I wouldn't consider as pleasant,

something weird,

something wrong, more to guilt. 

I'm not exactly at fault, 

neither are you. 

It has never happened to me. 

but I've read it somewhere, a description of this feeling. 

That point when I read it, I thought.. impossible. 

Right now, I doubt. 

I finally understood your situation. 

I finally understood how you felt. 

But would I take the path you took?

Which way should I go? 

Please tell me that this is temporary. 

A misconception of my heart. 

words

From the closest to the furthest,
by just a few words.
that's how powerful words can be.

Thoughts and claims are yours,
therefore, far beyond my control.
but evidence is what speaks the truth.

Anger does not play.
Disappointment that is.
Coming to know what I'd never expected,
from the closest people I thought would be.

nice. very nice, perhaps.
The anticipation that I have had for months,
I've lost it, just so you know.
That is to go home.

Debt

Newton's 3rd Law.
Every action has an equal but opposite reaction.
What is happening to you now, is a consequence of what you did previously.
Sounds familiar? yes, another post about karma.
It hits you when you did something bad and sinful.
That's what everyone knows.

But the question is, how long does it hit you?
How does it take for you to pay back whatever you have done wrong?
When will it be over?
Will it be up to us to decide? or does it come and go whenever.


It's been a while.
Or should I say, it's been long.
When is the time where I have completely paid my debt?

manners

sometimes when you are so close to someone,

you tend to forget about manners and respect. 

it's because of that closeness you think it's unnecessary to respect,

you think they do not mind,

you think they do not care.

but it's the slightest manners that show that you respect. 

being close, it does not mean that you can disrespect, use and exploit. 

a simple 'hi' or rather a smile won't do much harm.

a short 'thanks' won't cost much time.

an apology is not enough to kill you. 

basic manners, no matter how close you are to another, it still means as much. 

especially an apology.

so difficult? 

although you may be taking them as an option to hang out with,

but they still do deserve some respect? no? 

they have feelings too, not only you. 

silence

it's not hide and seek.
i know why you'd hide, although not specifically from me.
but if there's nothing suspicious, there's nothing to hide.

the fact you did,
it's obvious the intention.

you can get away with murder all the time.
it isn't how the world works.
but i choose not to voice.

nice cover though.

Friday morning

woke up with a headache.

had a bad dream.

not one but several.  

what are dreams? 

seriously. 

如果

看完了on call 36,

突然想起两年前的事情.

两年前,得不到JPA的奖学金,

我从小到大的梦想一夜之间就消失了.

就是长大后要成为一个医生. 

看完了on call 36, 

我在想,

如果两年前我得到了那个奖学金,

我现在会读什么?

应该不是ADP了吧. 

也应该不会在美国念书了吧.

如果两年前我得到了那个奖学金, 

毕业后, 就会象戏里面的houseman一样,
然后慢慢成为一位真正的医生.
虽然辛苦, 至少梦想实现了.

如果现实生活中可以有那么多的如果... 

Rain rain go away

A smile can hide so much...

but it's just so hard to smile

when you don't even feel like smiling. 

It's a gloomy rainy day.

so much like what I'm feeling right now.

Enough said. 

Fantastic Baby

by BigBang.

an awesome 'turn-on' song.
to destress from studying,
to destress from finals.
and maybe,
some time out from sad emo love songs.

:)

Start of Something New

Sorry peeps!

Had some intruders.

Forced to delete my old blog due to some malware virus.

Because of some random lifeless people. 

It got hacked, I wonder how.... 

So I guess its a new blog for a new start. 

:)